Tuesday, April 04, 2006
yoo.
it's weird why energy gets sapped up so easily.
big SIGH.
anyway it's a very negative feeling but i feel turned off by the set of econs lecture notes. i had been very motivated to study hard for the friday's lect test, but mswong managed to douse a whole kettle full of cold water over me by saying the qns for the test will be a cross-topic one, with things like perhaps unemployment and labour. so it dawned on me that, studying the lect notes really do not help much, especially when you panic whenever you see the test qns being flashed on the projector in lt1. HAI. dread is going knock on the door again. i will have to go through the most agonising 55mins of my life, in lt1, breaking out in sweat (cold), shivering in the coldness of the aircon, filling up less than 2 full pgs of my foolscap (when people around me are tearing paper aft paper off their foolscap pad), racking my brains for the info that got lost somewhere in the humble furrows of my brain, predicting what marks i'll get. aft the test i will feel absolutely lousy and will feel like snapping at every single thing. BAH.
it's SO stupid to get so worked up over a silly test.
but ohh. what's new? the latest test i rcved back was horrifying.
MCT. i'm just so going to flunk it beautifully.
sob.
told you i hate my life.
and i'm still brimming with excuses.
i'm a useless sack of nothing but excuses.
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ja.
i so utterly belong to the 3rd group of people.
i'm gettting NOWHERE at all.
______ muakks.
